naked in front of the crowd
Thursday, November 10, 2022
viata ca si client Banca Transilvania -day 1
Am revenit la Banca Transilvania forata de situatie..si azi a fost prima zi ca si client BT ..nici nu mi-a intrat bine salariul ca am platit comision incasare OP =5 LEI !
Dincolo la ING era O .
Revin cu noi comisione pe masura ce ma voi lovi de ele ! :(
Sunday, November 23, 2014
I deserve to be happy
or how i managed to get over a weekend without arguments or screaming ..i belive that this ignore mode might work if i really stick to it and I don't misbehave like i usually do .
short term targets :
-concentrate on my children s childhood
-lough more
-sing in my car more often
-dance again even if I'm clueless and anti talent at dancing
-buy a cheap Christmas tree..a real one
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
This morning
This morning I was driving, on my way to work. I called my future to be ex-husband from the car. I asked him for the email with the list of the accounts I need in order to pay for the electricity & all. Very bored about this subject about which we've been debating for more than a month now,he declined me immediately. Then I have asked him if he can pick up our sun and take him to the swimming pool this evening ..and he said "yeah I will try". Next I have asked him where are the rain boots he has promised to buy for our little baby girl more than two weeks ago...and the winter boots I have asked him to buy cheaper from Decathlon..he hang up on me..I called again...he didn't answer and so on and so forth. I have struggled not to get mad..at phrases said at 10:30AM like "say fast what you need, I am busy to get to work" after I have taken care of two kids and took one to his kinder garden and still surfing through traffic to get to work... a work I depend upon in order to raise my kids ..while he went to bed at a time of his choice and woke up late just because he is too lazy to wake up earlier ...you should show a little more respect for the woman who raises your kids if you don't take the blame that you have neglected her as a woman in a moment in life when she needed you most.
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
rewind in order to go on
Why am I doing this ? because I need to figure out a way to go on and stop caring. I need to figure out a way to be happy again without him.
I need to understand that its over and that he does not want me back and that he never wanted me for real..it was just a short illusion in which only I got too involved and ended up caring and hurting like Im hurting now.
Does he still love me ? NO. Do I still love him ..clearly yes from the quantity of pain he produces in me every time I need him back and he pushes himself further and further away.
How do I stop loving him even after the divorce? This is in fact the question for which I need to find an answer in order to cure myself. I need to convince myself that its not him whom I need but the attention and care and emotions of which he has deprived me for so long... every time we had a fight it was due to the lack of attention he has provided me.
this is just the beginning of a new begginning.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Cautam bona
De luni cautam bona.. prin agentie..maine trebuie sa luam o hotarare. Apoi sa speram ca totul va fi bine si Mihai o va accepta..daca nu ...inseamna ca acesta este abia inceputul de saga cu bone pana cand o vom gasi pe "the one"....
Ma intreb daca barbatii cand se insoara au aceeasi atitudine pe care am avut-o eu cand am vizionat bone..niciuna nu este perfecta dar totusi tre' sa aleg una.
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